Me, Myself and I

“Same Mistake”

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.
And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he’d seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I’m not calling for a second chance,
I’m screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don’t give me choice.
‘Cause I’ll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don’t buy the promises ’cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.
I’m not calling for a second chance,
I’m screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don’t give me choice.
‘Cause I’ll just make the same mistake,
I’m not calling for a second chance,
I’m screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don’t give me choice.
‘Cause I’ll just make the same mistake again.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.

currently kat umah, loq staq..huhu..rileks je..sok maybe puasa..ke lusa ek?? ntahnye..rasenye esokla kot..dpt gak sambut puasa kat umah seperti yg diharapkan mama..hehehe..

Doa malaikat Jibril menjelang Ramadhan, "Ya Allah tolong abaikan puasa ummat Muhammad, apabila sebelum memasuki bulan Ramadhan dia tidak melakukan hal-hal yang berikut: * Tidak memohon maaf terlebih dahulu kepada kedua orang tuanya (jika masih ada); * Tidak bermaafan terlebih dahulu antara suami isteri; * Tidak bermaafan terlebih dahulu dengan orang-orang sekitarnya. Maka Rasulullah pun mengatakan Amin sebanyak 3 kali. Dapatkah kita bayangkan, yang berdoa adalah Malaikat dan yang meng-amiinkan adalah Rasullullah dan para sahabat , dan dilakukan pada hari Jumaat.

maka dgn itu..sy ingin memohon maaf pd sume2 lah kalo ade tersalah laku..terkasar bahasa..tersakitkan hati..atau ter ape2 jekla..cam raya plaks..huhu..kannye ape..kdg2 kite pun tatawu yg kite ade wat slh kat org tu…last 2 days i was being so immature..maybe sbb dah exceed tahap kesabaran guwe. tp bile pk2 blk..guwe rase..guwe bleh extendkan lagi tahap kesabaran itu..cube utk lebey ikhlas…Amin~

So..Selamat Berpuasa

i hope i’m doing the right thing..i know i won’t regret.. enjoisss

currently in love with;

David Cook - Always be my baby
Usher feat Beyonce - Love in this club
Rihanna - Take a Bow
D’Masiv - Cinta ini membunuhku
Sixth Sense - Tanpa
Rossa - Ayat-ayat Cinta
Ungu feat Rossa - Tercipta Untukku

Layan..

i told him a secret that i just had for like 20 mins before he started to bla bla bla like this..

A good fren said: so, aku kena bgtau ko.. yg sometimes.. it just wont happen bile kite stagnant
A good fren said: ko might be his soul mate, he might be urs..
A good fren said: but soulmate doesnt have to love and marries each other
A good fren said: they just become close friend..

somehow aku setuju…perbualan kami berterusan smpilah aku nanges buat kali ke-10 utk minggu ni..hahahahahahahah..dem!

Desir pasir di padang tandus
Segar sang pemikiran hati
Terkisah ku di antara
Cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekedar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung Kupertaruhkan
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna

Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cintaku padamu
Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus kutinggalkan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud

i think i’ve posted it once..

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes…

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We’ll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower’s daughter
The pupil in denial

I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes…

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind off you…
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind…
My mind…my mind…

‘Til I find somebody new

*sigh*

"Better In Time"

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who’s there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’m gon’ be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn’t notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’m gon’ be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

bukan aku yg demam…elly eah baba yg demam…tlgla jgn demam wahai cik sohana..anda tidak boleh demam!!! anda perlu kuat dan sihat! anda byk kerja! hehe..cam baku laks.. tp tula doa aku..huwarghh..

aku br jek letak status in relationship tp ade gak yg dah start wat assumption ckp ade boipren segala..dlm 2 bln ni aku terpakse commit secara serius ngan keje aku..sacrifice..2 bln jek insyaAllah..tp tu la..pressure sket la..in relationship with my work..haha..teman2 rpt tau aku bkn workaholic..sgt tidak! tu yg susah tu..haih..hantam sajala..

berbalik pd cite demam…td on da way back blk umah, baba singgah g farmasi beli ubat…pastu siap ngan mask..dia yg pakai..tatahan lak aku nak gelak..mmg aku ngan ela gelakla..sepatutnye org yg tak sakit la pakai sbb takut jangkit..ni dia  lak yg pakai..terharu aku..riso dia kitorang demam..(setakat ni aku ngan ella masih bertahan)..last2 kali aku pun pki mask tu ngan baba..hahahaha..saje jek..weng

aku ade story..yg peliknye, takde kene mengena ngan chenta hati segala..hahaha..workwise jek..tak sangka lg mencabar minda dan perasaan aku sbg manusia..
tahap kesabaran aku makin tipis disbbkan mende ni..aku pun tatau sejak bile dan mcmmane leh berlaku..salah aku ke? yg aku tau, tibe2 jek kene "kao attack" ngan manusia2 itu..mule2 aku cam keep it cool la..tp byk kali lak kene..cam eh eh..apehal ni kan..teruk sgt ke aku ni..kenapa sume kesalahan letak kat aku..pemes sekejap rase sbb mende ni smpi kat bos2 beso..bayangkanlah..hahaha..dlm hati tuhan jekla tau kan…motif sbnr derang aku tak pasti..serius..korang nak ape sbnrnye…bile aku wat serang bls, tau plak nak marah..tak puas hati segala..cam tibe2 jek almost everyday ade jek lg yg tak kena..ala2 saje jek cari kesalahan aku..(keje part-time derang kot)…sape yg tak profesional sbnrnye..pastu ckp cara aku slh…pulak dah…aku pun tak ckp cara aku betul..at least aku cube kan…well, just do it ur way, kalo rase2 stuck kat mane2, i’m here to help..tu pun kalo sudi nak mintak tlg aku la kan..thank god kwn2 byk support aku..even org2 yg tak disangka pun seperti memahami situasi aku turut sapot aku..tu yg wat aku terharu memanjang..asyik2 nak nanges jek..hahahaha..
kata2 yg aku dpt:
"don’t take to ur heart"
"do whatever u suppose to do..don’t care what ppl said as long as u know what u’re doing"
huhu..aku cam..ok jekla kan..ntahla..aku pernah beberapa kali terpk "agaknye derang slh fhm kot.."..punyela selalu bersangka baek..takkan smpi 4-5 kali asyik slh fhm jek..sumthing wrong aaa..hahaha..aku kalo bleh dah tamau g sane dah…kannye ape..sian lak kat derang..nak kene control muke nyampah tgk aku..hahahah..seriously, aku dah tak trust org2 mcm tu..aku tak rase aku bleh berkawan dgn org camtu..nnt ade plak org ckp aku tak profesional plak kan..jgn isau..dr segi keje tayah nak risau..aku mesti ok nye..takdela nak wat hal segala..tp tu lah..kwn? it’s a no no at this moment :P~
satu lg..kdg2 aku tepk gak..apsal la aku jek yg selalu nak consider perasaan and situation org laen..do they ever consider mine? i’m tired of excuses..so plz..wat je la ape yg patut..but plz jgn libatkan aku or cube nak gunekan aku sbg mangsa utk agenda seniri…takut kang aku bertuka menjd makhluk ijau..hulk version pompan..hahahahah…br korang tau….
tah ape yg aku ngarut ni..sian gondol ngan farra..selalu jd mangsa luahan perasaan aku kat alor star ni..hik hik